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leaveofabsence) wrote2025-03-14 08:34 am
leaveofabsence) wrote2025-03-14 08:34 am
Ah yes. I had noticed that the two I have arrived with have already departed and some that came after me. As well as the graduations of Hiryuu and Aster.
Is this not normal?
Is this not normal?
People come and go all the time, but I feel like it's never been this... consistent, especially with the graduations. Like, lately, a lot of people are graduating together... and even before all this... there was a pretty significant graduation...
It must be difficult seeing so many of your friends leave. As well as your fiancé.
...not the first important person to leave either and I'm sure it won't be the last, though I think I've stopped caring about having relationships like that, at least with people who can leave.
. . .
But they do not live within this city.
But they do not live within this city.
No, but they can travel between here and there at their leisure.
I used to talk to the demons when they'd drop by Tokyo-F for a game. We were trying to learn more about this place, so I figured I might as well try getting close to a couple of them. I took pictures, asked questions, and just did what I could to siphon information into our waiting and grubby little hands.
I stopped long before Intensity left, because I was just too damn tired, but I'm pretty sure nobody fucken cares anymore. Only a small number of people try to make sense of what's going on here and how we can fight the system and yadda yadda.
I used to talk to the demons when they'd drop by Tokyo-F for a game. We were trying to learn more about this place, so I figured I might as well try getting close to a couple of them. I took pictures, asked questions, and just did what I could to siphon information into our waiting and grubby little hands.
I stopped long before Intensity left, because I was just too damn tired, but I'm pretty sure nobody fucken cares anymore. Only a small number of people try to make sense of what's going on here and how we can fight the system and yadda yadda.
Then if I am understanding correctly... there may be a demon that you are interested in forming a relationship with?
…I’m already in some sort of relationship with one of them. A former unitmate and a close friend of mine were the only two people I had told, but now they’re both gone. I figured I might as well tell somehow, and you’d already seen some of the changes I endured when our bond got stronger.
How much do you know about the two demon factions?
How much do you know about the two demon factions?
Just what the guidebook that Hiryuu wrote told me.
Though I suppose I know a little bit more about the Vengeance side since that is where my contract lies.
Though I suppose I know a little bit more about the Vengeance side since that is where my contract lies.
I should probably read that again sometime. I think it might have gotten an update at some point, but, ah, anyway… [ she takes out her phone and shows him a picture of Hadassah. ] She’s from Pythia’s faction, which means ‘Heaven’. She’s also a snake, and that’s where a lot of… [ motions to herself. ] this came from. I have corruptions of my own, but these ones are courtesy of ‘us’.
And I think I told you that my Heroes Never Die is on, right, [ she looks aside, because finding ways to just blurt out all of this is not as easy as she thought it would be. ] that’s also a result of our relationship.
And I think I told you that my Heroes Never Die is on, right, [ she looks aside, because finding ways to just blurt out all of this is not as easy as she thought it would be. ] that’s also a result of our relationship.
[ DVa.
DVa... that's.
That's a lot to take in.
And after a very long pause. ]
Is she fair to you?
DVa... that's.
That's a lot to take in.
And after a very long pause. ]
Is she fair to you?
[ shrugs. ] It’s hard to tell, since, like, it depends on what a person considers a blessing and a curse. Is never being able to die good or bad, ..? But, anyway, I’m kind of like her Oracle - and I’ve gotten visions in the past, though making sense of them is another story. I’m not really good at that kind of stuff though, so if the information given was useful I’ll… never know.
That is a very specific instance. And if you find never dying more useful than a hinderance I will not fault you or judge you for that.
You say you are her Oracle. And that she grants you visions.
But the power imbalance here is very apparent. That is why I asked if she was fair to you. If she treats you kindly.
You say you are her Oracle. And that she grants you visions.
But the power imbalance here is very apparent. That is why I asked if she was fair to you. If she treats you kindly.
I found out about it during the worst game that the Producers run here: Betrayal. It’s round after round after round of idols killing each other, possessed by ghosts or not. I did almost ten times there, in some fucked up ways that still chill me to the core. [ and haunt her nightmares. ] …so I don’t know anymore, honestly.
…well obviously. We weren’t on even ground to start, and I’m surprised I got anything at all. But she’s never specifically don’t anything to purposefully hurt me. She runs games, as all hosts do, but in the few instances we’ve spend time together she’s been fine. I do care about her, I think, stupid as that probably is.
…well obviously. We weren’t on even ground to start, and I’m surprised I got anything at all. But she’s never specifically don’t anything to purposefully hurt me. She runs games, as all hosts do, but in the few instances we’ve spend time together she’s been fine. I do care about her, I think, stupid as that probably is.
It is not as you put it - stupid to care about people. That is your kindness and your strength.
My only concern is if that care is returned even if she cannot go against the rules of her role in this production.
My only concern is if that care is returned even if she cannot go against the rules of her role in this production.
I think she does care. I enjoy her company and I doubt she would have agreed to go this far if there wasn’t something there, y’know?
Then I will trust your judgement on the matter. But if you do discuss it at any time, I am here. I have known a few humans who have had relations with adepti, so I may be able to offer their stories for comparison.
[ a text, formatted like a formal letter: ]
Demeter: Greetings Glaze Lily,
I hope this message finds you in good health. This is Amaranth, of the unit avante en garde. Though we have not yet had cause to meet, I have heard it spoken that when Tokyo-F's temporary "guests" initiated their slaughter, you were among those who put them down before their violence could worsen. Specifically, I believe you were the one to give Miura Hiroto his third death in this place.
If this is indeed true, I would very much like to meet with you to discuss both the man himself, and the spoils of your duel with him.
Demeter: Greetings Glaze Lily,
I hope this message finds you in good health. This is Amaranth, of the unit avante en garde. Though we have not yet had cause to meet, I have heard it spoken that when Tokyo-F's temporary "guests" initiated their slaughter, you were among those who put them down before their violence could worsen. Specifically, I believe you were the one to give Miura Hiroto his third death in this place.
If this is indeed true, I would very much like to meet with you to discuss both the man himself, and the spoils of your duel with him.
[ ...trust her judgement. no one trusts her judgement. ] H- heh, thanks. I might need to. I just... don't know how to feel about all of this stuff sometimes. Like, I definitely know this was probably foolish, but... maybe I'll have finally found somebody who won't leave me...
Glaze Lily: Greeting Demeter,
Unfortunately, I cannot take claim to stopping Miura Hiroto from killing anyone during YOU-KAI's exit. I only learned of it when Miura himself brought the body of his victim to be resurrected by pep!pep! . Though you are correct, I did claim something from him as payment. I also understand from talking to Persephone that you have had your own dealings with Hiroto both back in your own world and here.
I would be amendable to meeting if you are still inclined. Please let me know what time and place would be preferable to you.
Sincerely,
Zhongli
Unfortunately, I cannot take claim to stopping Miura Hiroto from killing anyone during YOU-KAI's exit. I only learned of it when Miura himself brought the body of his victim to be resurrected by pep!pep! . Though you are correct, I did claim something from him as payment. I also understand from talking to Persephone that you have had your own dealings with Hiroto both back in your own world and here.
I would be amendable to meeting if you are still inclined. Please let me know what time and place would be preferable to you.
Sincerely,
Zhongli
The people that we love never leave us. Even if they cannot be physically present with us anymore.
I guess that's true, but that still doesn't really help with all the loneliness. But that's probably human nature or something, ...being somewhat needy when it comes to feelings and junk.
No. It really does not.
So if she can help curb the pain of loneliness then I am grateful that you have found that respite. But also as your friend, I would ask that when you have the peace of mind to do so that you examine that neediness to see if it is helping or harming you. An open heart is more vulnerable than one kept locked away, after all.
So if she can help curb the pain of loneliness then I am grateful that you have found that respite. But also as your friend, I would ask that when you have the peace of mind to do so that you examine that neediness to see if it is helping or harming you. An open heart is more vulnerable than one kept locked away, after all.
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