I wasn't looking for advice, Morax.

[ he's crossing his arms at his chest and looking at him, and then he shrugs ]

I just know he will benefit more from your presence than mine. I don't like you, but he does. When he's ready to see me I'll talk to him too.

I am grateful for what you did in my dream. And it's why I invited you here. I will not try to push Tartaglia away from you again.

As for your original question.

I was never a pawn to any higher being. My creator abandoned me and let me live my life as I saw fit. Everything I did was because I wanted to do it. I was not cursed or manipulated by any other higher being.

If I had the chance at another life perhaps I'd simply want to never know who I truly was, and why I came to being.